Afraid

The days when you didn’t call me,

Or showed me that you cared…

Made me question what we had,

And all that we had shared!

These days would make me cherish every moment

That you were nice to me,

Made me feel nice and warm,

Made me feel so happy.

I had always wanted to be there for you,

And help you out with everything…

I wanted to be the friend, who’d be there

To give you your set of wings.

But you never saw me, or felt me,

I don’t even know if I exist…

Forget being one of the top priorities,

I’m not even on your list.

I walked away, thinking maybe

You’d at least realize that I was gone…

But if you never noticed me right beside you,

Why would you notice that I was moving on?

I hated you for being so rude,

For leaving me behind every time…

I went away cos I knew,

I knew you’d never be mine.

I walked away from your indifference to me,

The ego and attitude you’d always wear

I walked away cos you were least bothered

And the way that you never did care.

Though now I realize I’ve been lying,

I’m just covering up the pain…

I’ve only moved away cos I don’t want you to be nice to me,

For I’m afraid I’ll start loving you again!